The Greater Wings

I drank the air to be nearer to you
Voices widen through the room
Distant galaxies move
I’m not here for nothing

Music in the walls
You were in the moment
With your life across the chord
Was this always or never before?

I feel it, the tilt of the planet, panorama of the valley
Measure me by what I’ve risked
For these are not ordinary moments
But the circle that I traced in the palm of my hand

You’re always in the band
Forever Underground
Name my grief to let it sing
To carry you up on the greater wings

Pink noise, moonrise, devotion
It is not what is seen but what is known forever
I hope never to arrive here with nothing new to show you as so many others have

We hold the pact
Forever Underground
Still rising to sing

To carry you up on the greater wings

Portrait of a Clear Day

Beside you I drank from the pitcher of life
Whispered as not to wake the land
Timeless and wide in the middle of the night
I want to sing again

How many times I watched the sun rise and die
You know I’ve been alone
Sunlight burns on the water
The blues fall on you like a word unmade
Never to be the same

It was slow but for so long
I watched every gain I thought I’d made
Tumble to the ground

Silence through the rooms of this house
Holds every answer ever come at the end
Timeless and wide in the middle of the night
Am I just waiting for you all over again?

How many times I watched the sun rise and die
You know I’ve been alone
Sunlight burns on the water
The blues fall on you like a word unmade
Never going to be the same

It was slow, true and tried
What we’ve known
I carry that through time
Love affirms the pain of life

Your love fills me like the summer ground
Passed me like the rising sign
I get so nostalgic for you sometimes

Moonless

That night at the old hotel
I’d been learning you by heart
Voices rising through the smoke
Tables caving in I found it there in the room with you
Whatever eternity is

All these netted gems
I found a life there in the room with you

The sky is moonless
And the sea surrounds me
What does it matter the story?
If your absence remains
I feel it right here
What eternity becomes

I’m not waiting for your love
I’m not waiting for your love

I watch each particle move
Easy to say it’s taking everything to do
I watch each particle move
Pools of a moment widen through the air to you

Summer Glass

I can’t say if it was devotion
I just wanted to feel the sun on my skin
I brought myself to the edge of the water
Crossed the river to remember who I am

We draw the lines of protection
When our palms meet at every edge
You lit my joint with the end of your cigarette
Spun the pavement spirit harnessed into flesh

I too have lingered on in empty rooms
Desire, laughter, blur, ache, abandon
Are we gonna bring this to fruition?
The tattoo you gave me lying in bed

Watched the light turning gold
Our limbs a sequence of shadows
You are the family that I chose

One day the skin that holds me will be dust
And I’ll be ready to travel again
For now, I want to go further in
Into moment, into vision, into you
I swore I’d show myself so I could renew
That’s not the same as being new forever

The shape of your hand left in the dust of summer glass
I want to be whole enough to risk again

Lightning comes up from the ground

I want to be a fantasy to you
I think that is what’s going on here
Every time you come around
Lightning comes up from the ground

There’s no use to describe the sorrow of that time
I knew even then it was always meant to be the past
It was I who walked back and dragged it into the future
I who drove the road and screamed the night sky

That look is the most vivid image I have of you
The voices in my blood alive with longing
I tell you now what for so long I did not say
If I have no right to want you, I want you anyway

Death to the old ways
But who am I without them
I who sing to god to call her down
Lightning floods up from the crown

Flare

Drive with me
Never knew what I wanted
Only how to let it go
The curves of the mountains
Rest in me I find
There are times I’m in touch with who I truly want to be

Meet me on the dancefloor
Where I move in my own name
Where the golden lights cascade
I have returned from the nine moons of earth
There is no place I can remain

One more hour gorgeous and wild
I could have done better
You’re not the only one
I know you I see your determination
Remember our time for years to come

Yet I need a Love that will
Stay with me
In the pain it takes to reach
This common prayer
One day we’ll be the loving dust
Of another future

Be with me now
As the sun rises its flare

Grant us one more hour gorgeous and wild
I could have done better
You’re not the only one
I know you I see your determination
Remember our time for years to come

Conversation is a flow state

At dawn you said that you cared for me
Without really asking who I am
You know, there are ways I relate to it
I let so few see me truly

Did I get blood on the Masterpiece
I got blood on the sheets, it’s alright
Move my limbs toward the sonic reach
Open the stages of the quest

Right then your touch was medicine
And maybe that is all it was
But conversation is a flow state
Where the energy opens up

My eyes turn toward the light on the rail
In the onrush of a past life
Missing nights of feeling intricate
I miss getting the moment right

I go walk at night where Venus shines
I lick my wounds in my own time
Maybe it was flawed logic or maybe
I was burning too hot and alive
I was burning too hot and alive

Permission to feel it, it’s alright
Permission to grieve, it is alright
Healing can be heartbreaking, it’s alright
I am by your side

My eyes turn toward the light on the rail
In the onrush of a past life
Missing nights of feeling intricate
I miss getting the moment right

Time moves / there’s not much left to say
I’ll leave it on one thing I know
You’re a lesson that I won’t forget
Your fear is not mine to hold

Hope’s Return

If I were young I’d be unbridled with my words
Not yet a statue, a rough break seeking hope’s return
It is so like me to dream you, to be lost to desire
Your image comes to me like terrains of fire

I held your voice
Infinite in the night air
Go toward what is real
The moon is no god of fear

In this midnight give rise the precious oil
When words were just a reach for some truer knowledge
I watch you lift your eyes igniting like a legend
The molten dripping metal, that sense of horizon

I held your voice
Infinite in the night air
Go towards what is real
The moon is no god of fear
When I read your words
I felt the ringing of the world
Floating surrender

I need walks long enough
To free me from my mind
A sense of horizon

I need walks long enough
To free me from my mind
A sense of horizon

Death is the Diamond

Blue dawn of night go on
I’ve been missing you with my whole life
Does my voice echo forward?
Alive if only for a speck
My actions are all that I possess

And if need be, I would carry your death wish
Back into the arms of this rare life
My back to your back
This has been no easy religion
Written, braided, lived, and tried

Let the sun go down
I don’t want to feel anything but the moving ground
Death is the diamond, watched you riding horses across the plains
I guess sometimes it doesn’t always happen when you’re trying
But when you’re living
It comes on out

Sign on Caravan East reads, “For You, Anything”
I guess it’s a story so much greater than our own
Alive, moving through dusk
Alive, if only once
You make me feel like the prom queen that I never was

Let the sun go down
I don’t want to feel anything but the moving ground
Death is the diamond, watched you riding horses across the plains
I guess sometimes it don’t always happen when you’re trying
But when you’re living
It comes out